I apologize right now if this is going to offend anyone that reads it:
Living: I thought living was suppose to be something you did for yourself and not for everyone else. I thought we were suppose to live for ourselves and no one else.
Why do people expect things from me? I will tell you, I have no idea why people look at me and expect me to do what they want me to do. When alot of times it does not make me happy. I have come to the conclusion, that when you are so used to making people happy, instead of making myself happy. It is hard to live any other way, even when people tell me, "do what makes Lena happy." "What will make Lena happy?" That is them really wanting to say do what makes them happy and not what makes me happy, as long as they are happy then it does not matter.
Does it matter how old you are? No it does not matter how old a person gets there is always rules from someone, no matter who they are. Does that make sense? In some cases, I can understand having rules, but in some cases no it doesn't.
I am venting, I do not understand, if I decide to live my life a certain way, and make certain decisions, shouldn't I be able to do that. I should be able to have the ability to make mistakes and learn from them. If I do not make mistakes, how am I suppose to learn from them.
Again, if this offends you I apologize now.
